Right now I am living with my grandparents, I'm not going to school, I don't have a boyfriend, etc. So sometimes I feel like the BIGGEST LOSER. Like, beyond lame. I thought that I would be so much further in my life at this point than I am. Sometimes when I meet people and they ask me what I am doing with my life I am tempted to lie, or just shout - I AM A LOSER! Of course I don't. Yelling in public places comes off as odd, especially when you are saying how lame you are. Often it is easy to get caught up in comparing myself to others. But I know that it makes it worse to do that so I am trying not to.
I've recently made the goal to embrace where I am in my life and make the most of it. I'm going to pull a Charlie Sheen if you will, and let the world know that I am winning!
So here is the plan (it really helps me to actually write out my plans)
- Time to stop feeling sorry for myself. So I am going to start helping people who actually do have stuff to complain about. Food drives, shelters, etc. (This is also a little selfish too because helping other people makes me feel so much better.)
- Whenever people ask me what I am doing with my life, I am going to PROUDLY say what I am up to. I have actually come a LONG way since a year ago. I am proud to be where I am today.
- I am just going to keep making myself a better and better catch. To be 100% honest (and I'm not just saying this because I am single.) I don't even want to be in a relationship right now. But I am working on myself so that when I do want to be in a relationship, I can be the best girlfriend I can be.
- I am starting to be religious again. This is a tricky one for me because I have always struggled with my faith, but I feel like having God in my life again is only going to be a good thing. (If you don't believe in God, or are not part of any religion, just gravitate to whatever grounds you and helps you stay positive.)
- Finally, use my setbacks to push me and motivate me into being the very best. I refuse to stay stagnant or even fall backwards. The climb is uphill, but I'm ready.
Like I said, life is completely unexpected, but it seems to be for the best that way. If I hadn't gone through what I have, I never would have made this blog. I never would have met some of the incredible people taht I have. I never would have seen the beautiful sights I have seen. So I am choosing to embrace it. I am choosing to love my life.
I am choosing to love my life.
3 comments:
Okay, Okay. I love a good pity party every now and then. It is good for the soul. I think you should add a number 6 to your list and it should be this: Paint at Jaime's more!! That is also very good for the soul, whether it be an injured, healthy, sorrowful, or happy soul. Get your little hiney over here, day or night, night or day. The lights are always on for you and my door is always open. Because I.LOVE.YOU.
I love it! That's something I've been learning a lot about too. I always get caught up in comparing myself to others. But something my bible study teacher told me really was just like a smack in the face. Like, Wake up! I need to accept who I am and where I am and the gifts and abilities I have. I am me. No one else.
I'm on almost the same game plan as you. I'll be praying for you! I know you can do it:) thanks for the inspiring post. I love your blog!
That quote you have about the grass being greener is FANTASTIC! If my grandpa had seen that when he was alive he would have had it carved in wood, hanging on his shop wall.
Thanks Wammers! Great blog article - very positive.
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