A Beginning

My name is Samara. Something that a lot of people that know me probably don't know, is the fact that I have been suffering with depression and anxiety for about eight years now. (I often feel like there is a cloud around my head, warping the way I see things.) At times the struggle is harder than others, but the struggle tends to always be there.The reason that a lot of people don't know about it is because I am pretty good at wearing a mask. But I am trying to be more honest. (Thus the blog.) Through the eight years I have been on and off of medication. Right now I am on medication and I plan to stay on it for a very long time, possibly my whole life. The reason that I am thinking this is because when I went off of the medication, I was fine for a couple of years. And then out of nowhere I spiraled down quickly to rock bottom. They say that everybody's rock bottom is different. Well mine was pretty terrible. I am a lot more empathetic to people who have crashed down to the cold,  hard, unforgiving surface like I have. So far this blog is sounding pretty melancholy, but the reason that I am writing the blog is to show people that it DOES get better. Slowly, slowly, it does get better. Another reason that I am writing a blog is that it is therapeutic to write down your feelings. (Could that be tip for some of you out there?) Hopefully I will have SOME people read this blog. Whether you are suffering from depression or anxiety and you want to realize that you are not alone in the battle, or you just know someone suffering and you want to more fully understand the issues, I am hoping that this blog will be a good thing in all of our lives.